my Sabah

being quite a while not posting anything on this blog. and since, i cant sleep, though it's in a wee hour, alone at a hotel room in kota baharu, kelantan, maybe i'll drop a few lines.

being in Kelantan! i never imagine the place will be this sempoi..the people are so very friendly (though its a bit hard to understand their dialect) and the foods are so very cheap!. my first lesson here. #1: never trust what you saw on the national Tv news. level of accuracy = 30%. bandar Kota baharu is like any normal city.. and most of the city dwellers are chinese who speak fluent kelantan malay dialect!

#2: dare to be different. be proud of whoever you are. i think, in malaysia, Kelantanis and sabahan are two group of ppl who stubbornly hold fast to our own culture. the evidence? we never let go of our language lingo, no matter where we are. we also proudly mengaku sabahan (kalau pigi megintroduce diri dalam group besar.. we usually introduce ourselves as sabahan first, then come the race and so on.. ). but, in terms of political standing, i dont know, what we sabahan believe in....(its crystal clear here in kelantan..its about religion). it never failed to amaze me, the determination and willingness to be different to stand for something they truly believe in (even for one dead wrong!).

bah, like what YB Wilfred Bumburing said in the parliament.."we will always remember Datuk seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, as a Prime Minister who initiate the openess in our country. we should thank him for that". i think, and i hate to talk politic in my blog (arghhhh!!!!), but, i think, what our country need the most at the moment is more openess. be it about race, religion or other matter...(we, sabahan, should have no problem regarding this matter)... and certainlly not another big bluff like that opposition leader (the more he speaks, the less my respect for him) it's time to think with our head, not just heart...

we, sabahan, have the least reliable political leader. we dont have a clear shared political standing. we, sabahan were the original initiator of the 14 perkara khas untuk penubuhan Malaysia. but, now, we let go most of those 14 perkara... unlike Sarawak (who ikut2 jak kita punya idea, once upon a time). the sarawakian are more loyal to their 'ibu pertiwi'. (inda sanang ooo mau beli tanah di sarawak.. even rumah pun susah, if you are not local)... and they stilll hold onto the usage of 'passport' for those not local.... sabah?... apa mau cakap? (berapa basar tanah Anwar Ibrahim di Sabah?- just to give one obvious example..)... in the end...we, the local will be  a stranger in our own land.. KK, itself is more like a little Manila nowadays.

my beloved race "Dusun", being dubbed by St John (Low's friend touring the land of borneo, dulu2) as the most gentlest nomad of Borneo. we never fight back..org jipun datang, kita kasi makan, orang putih datang, kita ok saja... (thats why, mangkali, kita kurang rasa benci sama penjajah) we, idolized America. we love the British. in short....we dont have a firm standing over anything. i dont know what to expect or what to suggest...